Everything We Feel Is Holy

 
 
 

There is a question about our lives. “Can it be that there is something beyond this experience of change, something which loves and cares and can be depended on? Can it be? If it can, what is the purpose of all my concerns, all my fears, and all my need to defend or hold on? Is there something I can really trust beyond what I can see? If there isn’t, I must be afraid of my own experience. I must be cautious about my inner life. I must be afraid of my secret dreams. I must hold on to those things which seem safe, and struggle with them when they appear to change. I must use this world as it seems to want to use me. If there is nothing else, if this is all that exists, then those who seem to attack me can really hurt. I must respond with an attack in return.”

These are the questions we face as human beings. “Is this experience of change a threat? If it is, how is it possible for me to ever feel that I am safe and loved? How is it possible for me to ever live without regret? If change is all that exists, then my life becomes a race in which I cannot keep up.”

This feeling that nothing else exists makes us weary and fills us with a kind of smothered rage. Let’s imagine that there is something we can trust, something that is only Love and is not involved or affected by our confusion. Let us imagine for a moment something does exist that can never be affected by what will change, and never goes away. Let’s imagine for a moment that there is something invisible that can be relied on, something that is safe for eternity and will never disagree with what we are or what we think we’ve done -‑ that no matter what we do or say, there is something which will never go away.

Let us feel for a moment the truth of this idea and what it does to our experience in the world. Let us imagine even more deeply that although there is this silent, deep ocean of Love and trust that is available to us, in our present state we can’t see our way to fully trust what is invisible and always in a state of rest.

Let us feel the possibility that an intermediary exists between the great ocean of unaffected silence and us as beings trapped for a moment in the corridor of time. Let’s imagine there is a Brother/Sister who knows us, loves us, and cares for us just the way we are. Its only purpose is to lead us as individuals away from the nagging belief that life is a threat and into the ocean of Love from whence we came.

Let us imagine that this intermediary is the central link on the great chain of our destiny, not a chain that binds but a chain that leads away from bondage and into freedom and peace. Let us imagine everything we once saw as a threat becoming a tool which will help us overcome our loneliness when we accept the Love of this intermediary. Let us imagine that our experience is not a weight we must carry on our long journey through shadows.

Let us begin to feel that we are not alone. There is a Companion with us at all times. This Companion perceives no gradations and feels equal to us in every way. It sees no forms as better or worse that any other. At the same moment It respects that we do see gradations and forms as if some were better than others. This Brother/Sister is lovingly aware of our attachment to form as salvation and yearns to gently turn us away from such a painful belief. Let us know that such compassion exists for us here, right now, and that we don’t have to be afraid.

It doesn’t matter what name we give to this Companion who blesses and heals. This Being has come to the earth and has been given ten thousand names, and all that matters is that we accept the gift of Its Love and allow ourselves to have our thirst quenched forever. This ancient Being sings a very simple song from the cradle of our heart, “Everything you feel is holy. Everything you are is holy. You have just misunderstood. Your misunderstanding is not a sin. It is not something you must fight against. It is the very place you can begin to find the truth, and it is therefore safe.”

There is great dignity in even entertaining the possibility that such a configuration of visible and invisible entities exist. Yet the question remains, how do we escape the belief in bondage that we share? We begin exactly where we are. We begin exactly with who we are. We begin with our feelings as they are and not as we think they should be. We take the scars of our past and gently put the healing hand against them, letting them open again briefly so they may be closed without a trace. We let this sense of separation become an honest experience, and in that honesty comes the recognition that we are longing for God and for God’s Grace here on earth, knowing it will come and that we don’t have to be afraid.

Excerpt from audio “Everything We Feel is Holy” –  available  from our catalog.

Copyright 1993: Estate of Stephen Robbins Schwartz

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